Here I am...Ushering in the last day of 2015 in the wee hours of the morning. I haven't blogged since Kaydence's birthday in February. Geesh. I'm a slacker at this blogging thing. I'm a slacker mostly because my family, my job, and my volunteer work kind of suck all of my time up and most days I can barely move by nine o'clock in the evening. I just can't help myself because when I feel like I REALLY need to sit down and write, then I had better listen to that voice. I will now attempt to describe what just keeps going through my brain. Christmas brings so many emotions and since the year of Kaydence, now four years ago (crazy isn't it?), there are so many extra emotions. Used to, I would watch my mother-in-law just get kind of sad from January to nearly June, because Wes, my late brother-in-law, had a January birthday and died in May on Mother's Day weekend. So life just kind of got sad and it still does a little it seems. Now, even though Kaydence is