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This week I have this really unusual quiet moment to myself so I decided to blog a little. I am currently sitting in my office waiting for a 4-Her to arrive with her mother so we can get her on track for an exciting year beginning at the end of June. I'm so excited for this young lady to step out of her comfort zone and step up to a leadership role. I've been working on her for a year to do this because I recognized her abilities as soon as I met her and watched her among her peers. She makes what I do very gratifying.

I know you are really wondering how Kaydence is doing. Well, good and not so good. For the past 2 weeks she has been so extremely fussy starting about 3ish every afternoon. This continues for the next 6 hours. I'm not sure if she is uncomfortable, in pain, or just wound up a little. I have concluded that we have a reflux issue and we do have medication for it. As a matter of fact, we started a new med tonight. I hope it helps! She also has a little bit of a startle that gets her pretty upset. I don't know if it is just still her Moro reflex or if it is something more. We will see our infectious disease doctor soon, so I hope that we will be referred to a neurologist to check everything out.

It's things like the startle that make me wonder if I have enough faith in God. I question myself about if taking her to a neurologist isn't having enough faith in God. I am praying for the complete healing of her brain, so is my wanting to take her to a doctor really me saying I don't believe He can heal her without a doctor? On the other hand, I believe God sends us to the right people at the right time and that doctors and nurses are His hands. Who is to say that going to a doctor isn't part of the healing? Let me make this very clear however, I do believe that God can heal without the help of earthly medicine. Kaydence's heart is proof. Her pediatrician said that babies' brains are plastic and we don't know how they will turn out. He also said x-rays and such are just shadows and we shouldn't place our faith in shadows. He is so right about this.

No matter what, I will try not to worry. Instead I will work harder to listen to God. God is in the stillness, so I have to work extra hard to find that time each day when it is still. Unfortunately this is about Midnight for me, but that time is so important to me. I hope others find that time to listen.

I can't find a great way to wrap up my thoughts, so I'll just leave with praise God for what He has done for Kaydence, for me, and for my family and friends. I'll continue to listen, to pray, and to praise. Amen.

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  1. Julie SchwabMay 30, 2012 at 9:52 PM

    Wendy: I think your faith in our God is what keeps you wanting to find answers. Finding the answers by praying to Him and most importantly listening to Him is what makes you such a good Mommy! I continue to keep your sweet family in our prayers.

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  2. Connie's ThoughtsMay 31, 2012 at 7:21 AM

    Never doubt about your faith in GOD. It is the blogs that you write about your faith in our Lord that makes me stop and listen.

    Love,

    Ms Connie

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